ღ All my lovely teachers ღ

What the most comfortable moment ever! 

Well, today I got rejected to be a trainee in the internship program ummm, it was too late.  I had tried my best in any way but I couldn't make it that I even cried in front of everybody, it was too difficult for me to hold back my tears, it really was.

Some people say having high GPA is better than going to be a trainee because when we find a job the GPA is the big big deal to lead you to bed of roses, it represents your ability that you might be considered one of good, clever, punctual, orderly, student in class, the best people anyone could ask for. Some say GPA doesn't matter as long as you have work experience. It makes you look more professional than ones who don't.

Well, after I got rejected I walked my friends to my teachers's office because she needed to do something.  When my 3 beloved teachers saw my face they confusingly asked "what's going on?" because my face was so red from crying so hard"  their faces looked so worried and I could feel how much they cared about me.  I told them everything I had been through for the past 3 days of my life.  They almost laughed out loud but felt pity for me at the same time.  I knew that my reason was too silly to make me cry but I couldn't help it. "Why are you crying? it's not a big deal.. not to be a trainee doesn't mean it ruins your whole life.  I will help you finding a job that you can do during the school holidays. And you don't have to be approved from the university I think it's way easier. Just don't cry"  Oh my lord, when I heard these heart-warming lines I was crying even harder because It was too touching my heart and I had realized how much they cared.  I was so happy I have been studying here. They are the most kindest teacher I have met in my entire life.  It was so impressive hearing those words.. they warmed my heart, they healed my pain and teachers turned my bad hair day to be a lovely day over again.  

I'm so lucky to have met such wonderful, kind, lovely, gorgeous, friendly etc. teachers like them.  They're understanding and always helping me out with anything also always being there when I need. Every single teacher has a special place in my heart. I love them so  much I love them more than words can ever ever say.  If I get in troubles, they're the ones who I will turn to.  A.Kruamas, A.Yui, A.Pasakara, A.Tiab, and A.Too ღ you guys are my most favorite people in the whole wide world always have and always will ღ

I love you to the moon and back ღ

(>‿◠)✌ peace off!

About My English Grammar

I still remember how I was so stupid 2 years back then.

I graduated from RCC (Rayong Commercial College) before being here in UTCC. At RCC I studied "Secretary" which gave me a lot of knowledge how to be a good secret keeper haha well, NOO I'm not that good at keeping things but you can trust me for some reason that things you tell me won't be spread! I promise lol.  Also, it taught you how to be a good secretary that your boss will hire you with high salary, if you deserved it. It was extremely fun to study every subject like, English for Communication, Typing (real typewriter), Microsoft Offices (especially Microsoft word, excel and power point) except MATH!


Back then, I didn't know English much that I was too stupid to be the smartest kid in class but I was! I was the only one in class who was good at English and I had no idea why, because my English grammar was beyond terrible that words can't ever describe.  "I'm go to school" for example, what do you think? Verb agreement, tenses or even simple sentences I was so very dumb!

But when I first left my tracks here in UTCC everything'd changed.  I remember when I studied English for Communication 1 with A.Guide that she assigned the whole class to show and present a business that we were interested in. When it was my turn, I went on and everything'd gone wrong.
I said something stupid and it was about my grammar; it's still in my head that I said "I does"!!!!!!
You know what? I had never used "DOES" in any sentence in my entire life and I had no clue how to use it correctly but I just wanted to use it just once in my life. yeah, I show everybody in class my dumbness.

Then, A.Guide blamed me about it with furious mood and mad face (I thought she had for sure never seen anyone dumb like me before); she made me cry because I had never been blamed that hard.  But it's the best thing that ever happened to my life, it was something big moving me forward and things she said gave me my new life.  I am what I am today because of her.

Since that day I always write in English and I don't care if my English is terrible because at least I've tried.  It always makes me laugh so hard to reread my old statuses on facebook; it's way different from this moment.
also, I have many friends from all around the world on my account that we never talk but I always stalk them, I read their statuses just to notice and keep some details how they use English, how they say, how they speak to their friends so that, I can use and speak english naturally.

Practice makes perfect?
Yes, I do believe in it because I practiced in every way I could like chatting on skype, speaking english as much as I can, watching movies with English sound, sometimes with subtitles on sometimes off.. You never know how much I've tried. English wasn't easy for me at all and it gave me a hardest time but I've never given up on it.  I've tried in any way to make myself better.  It was a rough time but I sill went on till it turned out like this.

Don't give up, always practice and you will be the best, I promise.  You never know what it turns out to be until you have tried hard enough.  I don't give you my promise but if you do what I say you will understand.  I was stupid before and even stupid than you guys before, remember? It takes time to do it good but you're not going to regret how you devoted your little time practice your English by reading grammar book or something else you like.  STOP BEING LAZY!


YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN..


(>‿◠)✌ peace off!

My Valentine's Day @};-

Ummm..

First of all, I have been single for almost 4 years now and in the past 3 years I hadn't had any romantic story on Valentine's Day like any other That I was always eating on my own every single year while the rest of my friends were hanging out with their boyfriends.   I got used to it and for me it's just an only day that will pass you by.. nothing, but a day. 

People who have a boyfriend or a girlfriend, they are all waiting for this special day to come.  It means so much to them that some may have a crush on someone and plan on asking him/her out. Some are just ready for the night yeahh, to make a special-big night, if you know what I mean. lol some people hate this day so much especially all single ones. 

I admit that sometimes I feel so lonely and jealous of people who have someone on such a special day like this.  It's hard for me to find the right one when thai guys are not what I'm looking for.  My friends might have already 3 kids when I get my first white boyfriend because I know it takes a lot of time.  I can't help but to keep waiting that I don't even know, if I could find the real one. 

When I was about 17 or 18 I got a lot of roses from my friends in class and from a silly boy who had a crush on me.  It was an unforgettable day in my life.  I once got a big bundle of roses from a friend of my boyfriend because he had a secretly crush on me (my boyfriend didn't know about it but finally he found out but nothing happened only he couldn't trust me again).  It was so stupid being like a flirty girl but... I didn't mean it. 

So, my ex boyfriend and I broke up.  and I've been single ever since.

Well, It's okay for me not to be with somebody special on Valentine's Day.  It's not that important to make me sad even though, I feel so alone sometimes but I'm going to be okay that I know I'm not alone at least I have my friends who are still single that we're in the same club, we still can go hang out together when most of people go to hotel.  

Just don't be so sad that you don't have anyone to be with on Valentine's Day. It's not only you who's sitting and eating on your own. It's not people around the world are all taken.  There're just only 24 hours a day. You know well that time's passing by so fast.  Valentine's Day will be passed with time and it would be yesterday.  Keep smiling because I believe that there's someone out there on the way to meet you in the right place at the right time.  Good things take time, keep believing.  :)

Even if, it's not a good valentine for now but when it comes to your day it's gonna be a big-perfect day of all time.. 

Happy Valentine's Day x

(>‿◠)✌ peace off!

BIG DEAL IN CLASS

I'm not going to pretend but I love things difficult.

All of my friends are likely to study easy subjects and to get good results they will go for it without any doubt, doesn't matter if they like it or not.

As long as they will get the A or the best results anyone could ask for they will choose any subject which has nothing much to think about.  More than that they will be on the moon when that subject will assign them nothing to be done.

Once, one of my friends (I couldn't remember who she was) told me about a subject that we would get the A easily.  I asked "HOW?" "Just go study and sit there in class and you only have to buy the book which was written by the professor of that class and all things will be solved, that's it" she said. No one said anything but there were lots I had been thinking about like "Why? What any good will you get from studying such a class?" You don't even know what they're going to teach you and you don't even know if you can get through that class with a lot of usefulness"  You guys are easy.

Sure, I have no right to judge people if they love being easy. Be honest I don't see any good to study what we are not interested in because it surely goes to waste and it's not worth it in the end, also we will waste much money on something useless.

For me I will go to somewhere I want to go or choose something I want to do or even any subject I think I'm good at it.  Being happy in class is the big effect on your results because if you study in any class but you don't feel anything but being bored you'd better think about it 10 times over whether it's worth it.

There were a few subjects that I studied without my best friends because we didn't have the same taste in study. So, I walked my way to what I like and it's pretty hard but not too hard to stand and my results came out good.

I don't know about any other but to have great GPA with a big hole in your brain is way unbelievably pathetic for some reason.

But for somebody who's always been good at everything and you can go fine with anything I congratulate you on that because you're too lucky and I have a friend who's good at any kind of things. She is clever, punctual, neat and orderly.  She is the best friend anyone could ask for. "JAYY"

Well, I don't think I'm better that anyone because I know that there're lots more I have to learn.  I know my own self well and I love how my life has been better and better. The older I get the better I am going to be.

People, please don't go walk on easy path but choose the difficult one and you will have so much more to face and it will make you strong more than that it will be an unforgettable adventure in your life time.



Have a blessed day.




(>‿◠)✌ peace off!

reminiscing :)

Did you ever miss your good old days? 

I don't know why I loved English class so much when I was a little girl 

well, I found my old teacher was so wonderful on his job. 

He gave me a lot of happiness and fun in class the way he taught students was the best 

and he knew how to entertain his audiences. 

I had no idea what other boys and girls thought of him 

but for me I loved studying English class and he was the reason how I was so enthusiastic.

Back then, I had been asked with this question

"What are you going to be when you grow up?"

the teacher asked everybody in class that he assigned students to think about what they

wanted to be in the future it was like an introduction.

I said I wanted to be a nurse hahaha I didn't know much about occupation vocabularies 

but a carpenter, a fisherman, a fruit seller, a nurse, a teacher, a soldiers etc. 

that were in student books and I still remember all pictures in it. 

I don't know why but still remember exclamation "Ouch!" that a carpenter accidentally 

hit himself with a hammer. Almost all girls in class wanted to be a nurse and a teacher, obviously. 

I was only 8 years old.

But when I got older that I was 18 or something I didn't want to be a nurse anymore 

but an air hostess. I had no clue why an air hostess came up in my head but for me an air hostess

was the best job ever. They just take care of passengers on a plane 

not too tired and also they can fly in the sky that I thought they could even touch clouds

how stupid I was LOL 

every time I was so excited when I heard the sound of a plane it was very loud when I heard it 

I hurriedly ran out to see and screamed out loud. It got me so very insane because 

I wanted just once in my life going to be on it. It was my huge dream when I was a silly

kid :)  but the truth is I know my own self that I won't be able to do that career 

because of my looks; I'm not beautiful and also pretty fat yeahh, what a reason. =_=*

nowadays a tour guide is the extremely best career ever! I admit that I rarely go hangout 

but a tour guide is so adventurous for me I love adventures 

but hate going anywhere as long as I'm in Bangkok.  

I know myself full well that I love to service people, I love smiling and I smile way much 

that sometimes my friends think I'm gone insane but I'm not.  

I just want to be happy no matter who I am with. 

I can go the same places 100 times over without getting bored 

but speaking the same same same things every day I'm not so sure about it lol 

and another reason is I want to meet a ton of foreigners

because I need to brave up myself to be better at speaking.  

Even though I study in English and I can speak and write in English 

but I'm afraid of foreigners. (what a loser)

you know when I stand in front of foreigners I'm completely speechless 

all tenses, vocabs even easy opening lines are suddenly gone  I don't know why 

and when foreigners seem to walk to me to ask for the directions

I was tremble and afraid so much because I don't know how to tell him 

and I don't know much about Bangkok but god knows that I really wanna help.

My childhood wasn't much adorable but being a kid was the best moment ever in my life

I didn't have to think much about things.  Didn't feel terribly sad from heart broken because

I  had no any clue what love was.  I ate, I played with boys, I slept you know

it was a kiddo life.. and I miss it so much.

If I could go back in time I would go back to the day when I was a kid <3

Keep smiling all the way x

(>‿◠)✌ peace off!